Well lets just say, that I am sooooo unbelievably happy Eric asked me out lastnight, and woww I was sooo happy!! He's amazing, and him and I together. . .is even more amazing! Ahhh I love him, it sounds crazy, but I don't careeee. . .

Now that I'm done with thattt ! I went to the show on Thursday, it was really good, everyone said they've seen better, but that was my first show so I thought it was pretty sweet! That's where Eric and I got a little cuddly too so it was great The bands were really good too so that made the night pretty awesome. Then I slept over Synoski's which was WOWWW haha that's just the word to use to sum up that nighttt! ahah we were up till about 5:30 in the morninggg haha I fell asleep when it was light outtt haha but wow, Syno and Justin are most likely gonna hook up ! aka BoOtSs haha he's great ! They were all so hilarious at the show: Denny, Zola, Justin, Mark ahh it was great ! I can't wait till the next show.

Well I really don't have more to tell youuu soo I'll update whenever !

Oh, whattttt a day !? I absolutely had a wonderful time... Well this morning I woke myself up around 11am, I hadda go over to the highschool to give Ms.Gavio[my cheerleading coach] my check for my sneakss lol 55$ =\ lol oh well. After that I came home and worked my booty off around the house. Did some laundry, painted, cleaned the little brothers room >=\ he really needs to start cleaning it daily, it's gross. Not like mine is always clean, but jez..I think stuff is like, living underneathe his bed!? lol but yeah anywayyys! After that I came on here and talked to Johnnnn =) I invited him up for a while. He camee of course =) Oh my gawsh, my great-grandmother knows his family, more then he does?! haha it was sooo weird? I mean jez, talk about a smalllllllllll ass world =P I walked into the kitchen with her and asked her what she thought and she was like " I like him alot, just dont get too serious "  I was like wellll we're not goin out YETTTTTTTTTTT but yeah?  It was great though...because when I hung out with John today, we didn't cuddle, we didn't show signs of affection, and when we went for a walk, we didn't even hold hands? and the weird part is...I wasn't unsatisfied? I was fine with it, omg this kid had me laughingg histarically! He busts on me soooo effin bad, but it's great? It's like...I finally found someone who..isn't immature and just skips through the important stuff, but goes right to it, I mean...usually when I like someone, I wanna get cuddly with themmmm and be touchy, but like...we were just so relaxed? It was amazinggg! I'm seriously so happy. I'm just worried that we'll become...close friends too quickly? and then right there, he'll have an excuse to not like me like that yano? Then I'll get all low on myself and think it's because I'm too fattt or not pretty enough =\ Ughh, I'm really staying positive with him and I though, cuz I believe that this could be the start of a greatttt relationship, one that I don't think will turn out to an immature highschool heartbreak yano? Aghhh just , I wish I could go into deeper thought, but I don't even know where to start?! He's simply amazing...and that's really the onlyyyyy way I can put it. Well, enough of the muShHhy Love stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!! Tomorrow I have my big 3 hour cheerleading practice, woOpi3e!? Lol, naw I loveeeeee long practices! They're great! I love cheering its so fun. It's worth all the busted lips and sprained wrists =P haha im seriouss ! but yeah...hopefully I'll get to hang with Kristen tomorrow cuz I have a day off of working my butt off around here lol or maybeee I'll see John =D ahhh =) haha whateverrrr, either way I win =) lol but yeah. The new season of Laguna Beach kicked off tonight, I was sooo happy ! I'm seriously the onlyyyyy person who Likes Kristen!? oh eM g3e ! lol I do, she's great, she didn't do nethingggggg wrong!? but yeah whatever, haha. " Dramaa... I loveeee it ? " ye ye you knowww! haha well I think I'm done for noww ! Byesss

Stephanie Constance <3

I want to be everything you need,
every sight you see. Making you go
crazy ; slightly your disease.
A love without a  c u r e,
no uncertainties for sure.
The closest thing to alcohol
that calls you back for more.

-- i love you so much J <3 --

* cuz he's bittersweet`he knocks me off of my feet <3 *

Hello everyone! It's been a week since my last update, well obviously? I really don't know what to talk about...I haven't done much? The best part about this week was about 5minutes on Friday night, cuz I saw John =) Ahhh this kid has me in soooo deep! We're not goin out * yet * may I stressss but wow he's just simply amazing =) yes yes I'll stop. Anyway, we've been workin on the house alot lately cuz the appraiser is coming, forrrr we are buying our house finally! =) YaYy! I get to work my butt off which doesn't really excite me but yeah what can ya do? Cheer practice is cancelled for tomorrow so yeah I'll be working my butt off? Hopefully I'll get to go down Kristen's or something, it's great down there! We just hang outtt with friends, chillaxx in the backyard, maybe swim a little. It's cool! Definately a great time, beats sittin at home doing NOTHING but sit on this computer, watch tv, or be a hermit inside my room. lol. Well that's really all I have to say for now! I'll update whenever! Byeee

Stephanie Constance <3

Well, today was a very laid back day. I came home around 3 in the afternoon, absolutely exhausted from that Saturday day and night. My grandmothers fellow band member [ yes my grandmother is in a band, shes amazing ! ] Matt has these hugee block parties every year, and he owns so much land that everyone gets to camp out if  they choose to do so! Well, I was up until about 4am that Saturday. I had the best time, I got to hang out with my family\friends of the family, and it was just an all around amazing weekend! I got sing kareoke which was my absolute favorite part of the night, I get my practice in before December! Biggg month! I get to go to orlando for a possible sign off on a record deal! I swear I'll make it big before I graduate! It's my goal in life, but other than that I wish to be a lawyer. It amazes me how I'm one of the "smart" girls out there. My life doesn't revolve around having sex, smoking dope and crying over boys every second. Yes, I have my occasional " boy crazy " months but then I'm done. I haven't had a boyfriend in about 2months, since Chad [ the ex ] left for Camp Adams Juvenile Detention Center. He broke up with me for reasons, reasons that were my doing and also my fault, oh well, no-one is perfect, especially me of all people, haha. Wow, I get off topic extremely easy now don't I? Ok well I'll just keep writing and tell whatever pops into mind! K? k. Haha.

Tomorroww is going to be great. I have cheerleading from 12-2 then I'm going over Amanda's house for the day followed by " movie night " at the Freeland park. It's pretty cool, we don't go for the movie, just to hang out and see the old crowd from middle school, it's a jolly good time =) I love my friends, where the hell would I be without them, I really don't know? Possibly dead...I'm sorry to say =\ . ANYWAY! after movie night I'm sleeping at Amanda's with Erin, this is going to be a wonderful night! Haha I can feel it already!

My Aunt Deanna is in for the weekend, she is a tattoo artist so she comes in and makes a few hundred from my family and friends. Yes, I have 2 tattoos. I am only 15, but mother approves, and two is enoughhh for me thank you very much! I have a fairy on my right lower side of my tummy, and I have " Daughter " written in chinese on my left ankle. I almost wish I wouldn't have gotten that one, cuz now I realise what I really want for my 3rd, which could have been my second.  A music note on my foot, closer to my pinky toe, it would have been adorable, but hey what can ya do right? Whatever ahah.

So it's about 3am now, I think I should head to bed, I still have to straighten my hair, clean my room, and pack for Amanda's. I'm glad I started using mindsay again, I could use a journal every now and then, I've had sooo much on my mind! And now I can share with all of those who appreciate to read! Thanks a bunch and good-night!

Stephanie Constance <3